I found my blogger spot again! A lot has been happening in my life and the future now scares me. I no I'm going to die so here I want to show the world what I want. This I suppose is my last will and testament.
I love everyone in my life but most of all the little boy called Ryan who I have called my son. It fills me with joy hearing him calling me dad. I want him to have all my cuddly toys and my video camera so he can make more news reports like he did when he was little.
I want to thank Christiana for everything shes done shes such a good soul and I hate it when she cries. I want her to have my camera and do what she loves most taking pictures.
I want to leave my brother my motorbike and my sister my car and my 2 nephews the scaletrix Christiana bought for me that present was the best present ever.
Any money that I have I want my dad to have for putting up with me for so many years.
When I die I don't want there to be any arguments about where I will be or what will happen to me. Please do the following. I want to be cremated and put at Kingsdown Crematorium. Please do not bury me I don't want to rot away in a box. I want there to be music that I like and not religious at all. I want my son there and it be a happy time for him remembering happy things. Christiana has letters and things please make sure she doesn't get too depressed.
Please take care of my son he made me smile so much and I am so proud of him make sure he has something to remember me by. Give him my cap and necklace. I will always be around him I couldn't have children but I had him.
To all the people who left me when I needed them who didn't come and visit I forgive you all life is short.
1 comments:
It is a shame that your wishes were not granted... that people put their own thoughts and feelings before your dying wishes... how selfish and cruel...
You were right... as soon as it happened people came out of the woodwork... people who hadn't bothered to see you for years suddenly appeared... why? did they think you had left them money? did they do it to banish their own guilt of abandoning you? You needed them for the last 3 years... a phone call, an email, a knock at the door... anything... but they didn't bother until you were dead...
The people who truely loved you... looked after you... helped you through chemo... resussitated you when you had seizures... made you smile... took you to th hospital... the people you called your true family were simply brushed aside...
You nearly had your own baby but didn't... so you doted your love on a child and bought him up as your own... you would have thought people would be proud of that and would wish to help that child... not hurt him... not take away the opportunity to say goodbye...
Nothing you wished for in this post came true... everyone put their own selfish needs before yours... but I know you are in a better place now... you have told me... I am so glad you visit me and have been doing all of these amazing things as we spoke about years ago... I am glad you were in my life...
I may not have any physical object of yours... but you are here... in my heart... and no one can take the memories away...
I forgive... but I have no control over threefold...
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